From now on in this blog, I will pen all my adventures on Spirituality and on my efforts to understand astrology, Maha Perivas grace and why some things are predestined and how and why we can get Divine grace to avert disasters even if predestined and why in some cases we cannot.

Why was I not able to avert this disaster for my father? I knew and was so positive in the beginning that things would turn out alright.
Why didnt I tell Ananth athimber about what Sekar had said that from now on he would only work in his selfish interest? Would that have changed the course/outcome?

I am going through a trememdous sense of guilt that I didnt do enough to protect my father esp. by causing a rift between me and aunt and uncle and not sitting and discussing with them.

Due to this, each time I see my father suffer Im unable to look at him due to guilt and shame. I blame myself for what happened to him.

Why didnt I discuss with my father is he felt this procedure was really necessary? Why did I not have the guts to tell the girl when she came back twice for the consent forms that I didnt want to go ahead with this?

Unless I get some sort of Divine answer as to why this happened to my dad and why he is suffering like this, I will not be able to get over it.

I can only hope as a result of this that I get _______ before 2 months.